So much is happening. I’ve made dinner a handful of nights for a handful of friends and my boy, all undocumented. I’m shuffling through 2/3 PT job schedules. I’m trying to help Silver Lake Farms grow and expand as a business and I’m learning how to be an organic gardener in the process. I’m making new friends with co-workers and having drinks with old friends. I’m trying to get back to my yoga – because it really does make me feel more balanced.
AND we’re sort of in “wedding planning mode”. I say sort of because we had a plan and that plan was too expensive and the people we wanted to work with didn’t want a wedding (we don’t think) on their property. This hurdle has sort of put us back at the beginning.
SIDE NOTE: when I was, 12-14 (somewhere in there) we did an original musical at summer camp and one of the songs went “Be-gin at the begin-ning, muddle through the mid-dle and when it’s oooooover, STOP.” and every time I think of planning my wedding, I sing this lyric in my head. Nerd stuff…I know…but authentic. Rory has said over and over, and I think it’s true, that this is probably a blessing in disguise, that we’ll probably plan a more awesome wedding than the one we had initially were thinking about…we just have to start planning. So, as part of my August goals I plan to get the ball rolling in whatever direction I can. And, I have to remember to check on that dress I like, it could be on its way out.
I was reading the site apracticalwedding.com (also have the book that I am reading) and there was a post about a “people pleaser” planning a wedding – all too accurate to my life – and she said something at the end of her post that is easing my nerves and tensions so, I thought I would share with you: